(no subject)
2 days off of work. i was blessed with a wonderful 2 week trip over to the U.K. but i came back to the other sound guy, 2nd manager and another bartender all away. by the 7th day in a row, and your shortest shift is 8 hours, you have to start fighting the bits of tired insanity that try and work their way in. i'm left thinking of all the people in the world who live their whole life this way. the single moms raising 4 kids.....the children forced into cheap endless labor in the name of dangerously out of control capitalism....and anyone forced into a life of excruciating banality in order to make ends meet. i make a weak vow to stop all complaining.
i couldn't get myself to do the standard post i do when i come back from a trip. i always find the writing very inadequate, but this time i didn't even want to start. there's such an intangible quality to the experience, and i felt like leaving it alone. driving around the north of Scotland with a best friend you haven't seen in a year, with nothing but a tent, a grill to prop over a fire, a pan and a bottle of scotch. we became experts at spotting dead trees while driving to stock the car up with firewood. and if you have the chance to marinate venison in a nice single malt i do recommend it. i threw some photos up on the facebook.
since being back i've wanted to kick start the things i want to delve into. i've finally started rock climbing. don't know what took me so long. on my first go up, i'm quickly reminded of my old fear of heights. years back i gave it the ultimate middle finger by leaping out of an airplane, but apparently it was only a temporary rebellion. but the middle finger is back. agility, discipline and control were of the main things drawing me to this (and fun of course) but i'm now experiencing the greater test. getting to that point where the mind says "enough! stop! get off!" and not listening. when it feels like every muscle from your finger to your toe is going to collapse and can do no more, you fight. keep going. i was bouldering today (no safety equipment, but not as high) and i was nearing the completion of the course when i knew i couldn't go further. i turned my head to the ground to try and suss out my fall and then out of no where i just said 'no' and kept going.
i was reading the insert to Joe Strummers last album earlier tonight...
"nothing in the world can take the place of persistence.
talent will not. nothing is more common than unsuccessful men with talent.
genius will not. unrewarded genius is almost a proverb.
education will not. the world is full of educated derelicts.
persistence and determination alone are omnipotent."
i couldn't get myself to do the standard post i do when i come back from a trip. i always find the writing very inadequate, but this time i didn't even want to start. there's such an intangible quality to the experience, and i felt like leaving it alone. driving around the north of Scotland with a best friend you haven't seen in a year, with nothing but a tent, a grill to prop over a fire, a pan and a bottle of scotch. we became experts at spotting dead trees while driving to stock the car up with firewood. and if you have the chance to marinate venison in a nice single malt i do recommend it. i threw some photos up on the facebook.
since being back i've wanted to kick start the things i want to delve into. i've finally started rock climbing. don't know what took me so long. on my first go up, i'm quickly reminded of my old fear of heights. years back i gave it the ultimate middle finger by leaping out of an airplane, but apparently it was only a temporary rebellion. but the middle finger is back. agility, discipline and control were of the main things drawing me to this (and fun of course) but i'm now experiencing the greater test. getting to that point where the mind says "enough! stop! get off!" and not listening. when it feels like every muscle from your finger to your toe is going to collapse and can do no more, you fight. keep going. i was bouldering today (no safety equipment, but not as high) and i was nearing the completion of the course when i knew i couldn't go further. i turned my head to the ground to try and suss out my fall and then out of no where i just said 'no' and kept going.
i was reading the insert to Joe Strummers last album earlier tonight...
"nothing in the world can take the place of persistence.
talent will not. nothing is more common than unsuccessful men with talent.
genius will not. unrewarded genius is almost a proverb.
education will not. the world is full of educated derelicts.
persistence and determination alone are omnipotent."