Doesn't matter
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Not worth it... not faithful. Fuck... what does he know, he's barely been here.
I'm sick of of living for Mello's expectations, for him, its never done anything for me. Just end up getting hurt in the end, every time, doesn't matter what Mello it is. I'm never good enough for them, never enough for what they want. I'm the wrong gender or I'm just plain fucking wrong. They always want someone better.
God forbid I should ever show interest in someone other than him either.
Gaz was right, he's not worth this... after what he did. But why do I still feel this way? Its stupid..
Maybe he'll leave off now anyway, now that he's finally seen that I'm not good enough for him. He can just stick with the male me, be happy that way. Maybe he'll forget me, or something.
Specially now I might be... still feel ill, pains as well. I just want to find out whether I am or not soon.
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[Private to OU!L//Unhackable]
L... can I come over sometime soon, to see you? If you don't mind.
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Not worth it... not faithful. Fuck... what does he know, he's barely been here.
I'm sick of of living for Mello's expectations, for him, its never done anything for me. Just end up getting hurt in the end, every time, doesn't matter what Mello it is. I'm never good enough for them, never enough for what they want. I'm the wrong gender or I'm just plain fucking wrong. They always want someone better.
God forbid I should ever show interest in someone other than him either.
Gaz was right, he's not worth this... after what he did. But why do I still feel this way? Its stupid..
Maybe he'll leave off now anyway, now that he's finally seen that I'm not good enough for him. He can just stick with the male me, be happy that way. Maybe he'll forget me, or something.
Specially now I might be... still feel ill, pains as well. I just want to find out whether I am or not soon.
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[Private to OU!L//Unhackable]
L... can I come over sometime soon, to see you? If you don't mind.
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