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[gogar]

I feel like I am suffocating in this house. I've just been idle, working two jobs part-time but not really doing much else besides that. Sure, I play a lot of video games, but even they seem more fun when I am doing other things as well. I just feel like I am sitting here, powerless because I don't know what to do or who to do it with, or if there is anything to do or anyone that I could do it with. In fact, it seems like I have missed out on a lot of fun stuff over the years, I have just been sitting here without anything to do and no good reason for it. I can't even talk to the girls these days, my previous attempts at it were just so much of a failure, Heck, I'm 19 and still a virgin. I've been trying to be more social over the past year but it has only worked to some small extent. The only real model that I have had to follow in this house is my brother, but we are still not exactly the same. I'm not sure what I am going to do but I know that I have to somehow break this vicious cycle :(

Argh, whatever, maybe I am just frustrated for the time being, whatever. Later.