and i hate and i hate every.....one; malicious psycho
okay so things need to change
for fucking starters the world is too lame
i hate the way the world works
you go through life waiting for things and never really experiencing things
because of this realization i had a while ago everything has become really shitty
and i have no way to really explain what i mean
i guess it's like, you never really get a break from it all
you go through school waiting for the weekends
and then waiting for the vacations
then you work
all the while waiting for your next break from work
and then you retire
and wait for death
and you will never accomplish anything all that big or great
and it all just sucks soo much that i can't handle the fact that this is life and all i can do is just deal with it
well fuck that shit
i don't want to deal with anything or anyone
not because i'm better or lesser than anybody or anything but because i believe we are just going throughout infinity without a purpose
nothing we ever do will really matter
in the long term we all just die anyway
so life shouldn't just be work and breaking and working until death
that's a load of shit nobody should have to deal with
i would love to come back to life just as everything is ending
whether it be some nuclear war destroying it or the sun exploding
i wanna see everthing fall apart
things are put on earth to be destroyed
and i can't wait to see all the hard work everyone puts into everything going to waste
i fucking hate evrything
i want to give up on life and just let it take it's course
i want to be something too stupid to be able to have these thoughts
i wish i could just live to fulfill some duty
and have some closure
not retirement
and the worst thing in the world is i can't thing of anything to do but what iis set out for me
nobody will ever be able to change a fucking thing
and i hate it and i can't sleep and i've been getting more and more depressed recently
and i don't want to see some fucking doctor analyzing me and talking to me
poking and proding at me to get the truth out so that his life means a little bit more
i don't care why i can't sleep
i don't care why i'm depressed
i don't want medications to help me
i don't want anybody to help me
i want to reach nirvana
and at the same time i hate the thought of being at one with nature and shit or whatever the fuck it means to be in nirvana
why can't things be as easy as they should be
why does life have to be good for some and terrible for others
why do i feel like i could just break down, or turn off or die
i don't want to be able to think anymore
for fucking starters the world is too lame
i hate the way the world works
you go through life waiting for things and never really experiencing things
because of this realization i had a while ago everything has become really shitty
and i have no way to really explain what i mean
i guess it's like, you never really get a break from it all
you go through school waiting for the weekends
and then waiting for the vacations
then you work
all the while waiting for your next break from work
and then you retire
and wait for death
and you will never accomplish anything all that big or great
and it all just sucks soo much that i can't handle the fact that this is life and all i can do is just deal with it
well fuck that shit
i don't want to deal with anything or anyone
not because i'm better or lesser than anybody or anything but because i believe we are just going throughout infinity without a purpose
nothing we ever do will really matter
in the long term we all just die anyway
so life shouldn't just be work and breaking and working until death
that's a load of shit nobody should have to deal with
i would love to come back to life just as everything is ending
whether it be some nuclear war destroying it or the sun exploding
i wanna see everthing fall apart
things are put on earth to be destroyed
and i can't wait to see all the hard work everyone puts into everything going to waste
i fucking hate evrything
i want to give up on life and just let it take it's course
i want to be something too stupid to be able to have these thoughts
i wish i could just live to fulfill some duty
and have some closure
not retirement
and the worst thing in the world is i can't thing of anything to do but what iis set out for me
nobody will ever be able to change a fucking thing
and i hate it and i can't sleep and i've been getting more and more depressed recently
and i don't want to see some fucking doctor analyzing me and talking to me
poking and proding at me to get the truth out so that his life means a little bit more
i don't care why i can't sleep
i don't care why i'm depressed
i don't want medications to help me
i don't want anybody to help me
i want to reach nirvana
and at the same time i hate the thought of being at one with nature and shit or whatever the fuck it means to be in nirvana
why can't things be as easy as they should be
why does life have to be good for some and terrible for others
why do i feel like i could just break down, or turn off or die
i don't want to be able to think anymore