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I re-discovered this thing, along with my other livejournal, and spent a good hour or so reading all my old entries. so entertaining. i used to be so weird ! well i still am, just in a different way.
no more nick. no more jamie. no more boyfriends! i dont know why i always have a boyfriend.. its really not me. im so afraid of committment, but then im afraid of being alone, so im always in a committment. i just happen to find boys who think that we have to go out to spend lots of time together. i just dont like being by myself. i dont want a boyfriend until im financially stable and have everything figured out, because theyre a big distraction.
funny how i say all of that, because im dating someone right now[eric], and its not getting in the way of anything. he's actually encouraging me to do things and helping me out. he's in a rap group and is working on his solo album right now. he's really talented and really intelligent. i like that he sings me songs he writes all the time. he's paying for one of my tattoos for my birthday! im getting "live. laugh. love." on the back of my neck, then im getting roses on my right hip. im probably getting the thing on the back of my neck from this guy who's doing one of eric's tattoos [as we speak] and get the roses from a tattoo place. i dont know where though. im on a search for the best artist in santa cruz.
anyways. a more important update is that i didnt get my diploma. i have to take a summer class that starts in july, then go to the school with proof that i passed, and get my diploma. since im 18, i dont have to get permission from the school to take the class. being 18 kicks ass, but i havent really done anything yet. i havent bought cigarettes [dont smoke] or cigars, porn, lotto tickets, ANYTHING! im not into any of that stuff though.
i just boght a new phone. cingular. it got turned on today. i think its amazing that i can take the little card out, put it in someone else's phone, and it becomes mine. coolest thing ever if you ask me. and i opened a checking account yesterday. im officially grown up. now all i need is a job and my own place, which im on a search for.
hows that for an update on my life? i think its pretty good. now i dont have to write in this for a long time. nice.