04.04.10
i don't really write in here much anymore, but i guess i should start.
when i actually write the thoughts down they look so much clearer than they do in my head.
i know i'm not alone when i say this, but i wish there was someone who could just say "this is what you need to do now". in all honesty, i don't know what i want. i don't know where i see myself in 5 years. hell, i don't even know where i see myself in 1.
this should be a period of rediscovery. taking time away from everyone else; being on my own for once. but instead i feel like i've lost myself, and i have no idea where to start looking.
i feel like i should have it all figured out by now. everyone else seems to have their life falling into place for them. maybe for that to happen i need to know what i want, or where i want to be. but where do i wanna be? where should i be? and how will i find out if that's actually the right thing for me?
when i actually write the thoughts down they look so much clearer than they do in my head.
i know i'm not alone when i say this, but i wish there was someone who could just say "this is what you need to do now". in all honesty, i don't know what i want. i don't know where i see myself in 5 years. hell, i don't even know where i see myself in 1.
this should be a period of rediscovery. taking time away from everyone else; being on my own for once. but instead i feel like i've lost myself, and i have no idea where to start looking.
i feel like i should have it all figured out by now. everyone else seems to have their life falling into place for them. maybe for that to happen i need to know what i want, or where i want to be. but where do i wanna be? where should i be? and how will i find out if that's actually the right thing for me?