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This will be my last entry for this whole Live Journal thing. All that this stupid journal has done is hurt the person I care about most. My mom. I can't belive how much I have hurt her. She has done nothing but great things for me in my life. I don't know how to fix things between us. I have fucked up real bad this time. Im at a complety loss. I have no clue what to do or how to change. All I hope is that things will get better as time goes by and i can mend things with my mom. These last few days have been nothing but hell. I cant stop thinking about how Ive hurt her. Im horrible. Dont say Im not- you havent seen what Ive done to my mom. I cant imagine the future without haveing a good relationship with my mom. She doesnt know how sorry I am and she still thinks i hate her. I dont know how to make her realize that I dont. She doesnt know how to fix things either. Im not sure if she wants to. I guess I deserve what ever is coming to me. Everything happens for a reason. Maybe this will bring us close... I honestly dont know. All I know is that Id just die if my mom never forgave me. Shit this is the longest she has ever been mad at me, and I dont know how long its going to last. Im trying to fix who I am and make better decisions in my life. Well good bye- I hate this shit. Im soo fucking sorry for what Ive done and i have never had a bigger regret in my life.