still here... coping
It's been a really, really rough week. Cram a viewing, funeral, and thanksgiving celebration into three days and it is bound to be exhausting. The viewing... oh my gosh. So many people loved my dad. We were there from 1 til 5:30 and then from 6:30 til midnight. The actual viewing times were from 2-4 and 7-9. People stood in line for over three hours just to shake hands with the family or give a hug.
I just want to thank everyone who left me a message of encouragement. I promise that I will reply to everyone... it is just a lot to cope with at this point. You know how when you are upset and someone asks "Are you okay?" that it just seems to make you worse? That's what I feel like.
Should I feel guilty if I can still find some spots of happiness at this stage? Tonight my siblings, mom and I watched a family movie... we managed to laugh at the funny parts, but it feels wrong without dad being there. He would probably want us to still be happy but how do I cope with that guiltiness in the midst of such sorrow?
Sorry, this entry is a little scattered. I've just got lots of thoughts going on in my head still. Thank you for reading... and thank you again for all of the support. I love the friends I have met on LJ and every little note of encouragement means the world to me. Thank you.
I just want to thank everyone who left me a message of encouragement. I promise that I will reply to everyone... it is just a lot to cope with at this point. You know how when you are upset and someone asks "Are you okay?" that it just seems to make you worse? That's what I feel like.
Should I feel guilty if I can still find some spots of happiness at this stage? Tonight my siblings, mom and I watched a family movie... we managed to laugh at the funny parts, but it feels wrong without dad being there. He would probably want us to still be happy but how do I cope with that guiltiness in the midst of such sorrow?
Sorry, this entry is a little scattered. I've just got lots of thoughts going on in my head still. Thank you for reading... and thank you again for all of the support. I love the friends I have met on LJ and every little note of encouragement means the world to me. Thank you.