$10 says it's exhaustion
holy crap am i tired. but i just keep moving about, doing things... i've been up since 8 a.m. and i went to bed at like 4 a.m. this....errr yesterday morning. seriously. i've cleaned my room, read, watched a movie, played games, ran, drove!, talked, watched another movie, gone for a walk and sat on my porch swing in the back. now i am writing. there's not a lot of options left. and im tired in a most unfathomable way.
karen is in town. i can actually feel the kindness in the world a little more clearly already. honestly though, i didn't realize how terribly sad i've been until yesteday when i realized she was back. i guess i've been feeling awful. a lot. like RIGHT now. mostly when i realize im upset i can't sleep until i work through it or i pass out from boredom or sheer exhaustion. $10 says that it's from exhaustion tonight. eh.
sunday is mother's day. i want to say that i really love my madre. she's a wonderful woman. but i know i can't give her the only thing she wants. only george the apeman can.
and on an irritating note, im still waiting for my debit card to come to me in the mail. mostly so i can play city of villians. heh.
and ashley won't be gracing me with her prescence. BUT she will be eventually. so that sounds hopeful....
mostly i'm rambling hoping i will hit some kind of sleepy pinata that will explode and make me fall asleep. fat chance. so im done. bye.
karen is in town. i can actually feel the kindness in the world a little more clearly already. honestly though, i didn't realize how terribly sad i've been until yesteday when i realized she was back. i guess i've been feeling awful. a lot. like RIGHT now. mostly when i realize im upset i can't sleep until i work through it or i pass out from boredom or sheer exhaustion. $10 says that it's from exhaustion tonight. eh.
sunday is mother's day. i want to say that i really love my madre. she's a wonderful woman. but i know i can't give her the only thing she wants. only george the apeman can.
and on an irritating note, im still waiting for my debit card to come to me in the mail. mostly so i can play city of villians. heh.
and ashley won't be gracing me with her prescence. BUT she will be eventually. so that sounds hopeful....
mostly i'm rambling hoping i will hit some kind of sleepy pinata that will explode and make me fall asleep. fat chance. so im done. bye.