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"Sleep is only as comforting as the dreams you rest with..."
I want out, this is crap. I want to be in school. I want someone to love. I want a GOOD job. I want what I had, but let slip through my fingers like sand. I see my friends with what I have and I envy them. I'm driven to get it back. School, everything. And I don't just want anyone to be with, I want her. But I feel compeled to hold back and test the waters over and over again. I want things to be right, perminent. I had it once, but it happened at the wrong time in both our lives. I wish someone would just point their finger and say, "This is what you should do, this is your career. Go and conquor." I can accomplish a lot when someone tells me what to accomplish. Just the final goal, not the path. I can make due with making and taking my own path. Been doing it for 20 years. Another thing, I don't want to be down played anymore. I want people to be honest. There is too much deseption in this world for your friends to cast it on you. The truth may hurt, but it's the truth. Unadulterated in every form.
"Keep your chin up, learn to walk again. Step by step, breath by breath. This world can only deal so many crushing blows before you happen upon something whole and good for your life."
I want out, this is crap. I want to be in school. I want someone to love. I want a GOOD job. I want what I had, but let slip through my fingers like sand. I see my friends with what I have and I envy them. I'm driven to get it back. School, everything. And I don't just want anyone to be with, I want her. But I feel compeled to hold back and test the waters over and over again. I want things to be right, perminent. I had it once, but it happened at the wrong time in both our lives. I wish someone would just point their finger and say, "This is what you should do, this is your career. Go and conquor." I can accomplish a lot when someone tells me what to accomplish. Just the final goal, not the path. I can make due with making and taking my own path. Been doing it for 20 years. Another thing, I don't want to be down played anymore. I want people to be honest. There is too much deseption in this world for your friends to cast it on you. The truth may hurt, but it's the truth. Unadulterated in every form.
"Keep your chin up, learn to walk again. Step by step, breath by breath. This world can only deal so many crushing blows before you happen upon something whole and good for your life."