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Let's here it for weekends... I forced myself to sleep until a little after noon today. I needed it. Have to catch up on sleep sometime right? My counciler says that the majority of my dreams are centered around my fear of loosing friends/lack of communication with my friends. Since all my friends are what are basically what's tieing me to this earth, it's only logical that being seperated from the majority of them for one reason or another would cause so much mental stress. I dunno, it's just hard. It's hard being away from the people I grew so close to over the past year and a half because I just couldn't do school anymore. And the worse part is coming to terms with the fact I may no go back. That doesn't mean I won't, it just means that Western may not be the best place for me to pursue an education.. And as I sit here typing this I'm bobbling between conscieiousness and sleep, but I'm so damn scared about what I'm going to dream I don't want to sleep. I wish I could know exactly what I was going to dream so I could either stay awake or enjoy some much needed rest...
And apparently I also need to have a girlfriend, according to the doc. I supposively need someone I can have a physical relationship (not sex) with to satisfy the stress I have from being "reclusive" so to speak. I'm lonely, and that's only fueling the 'stress' fires which makes this sleep problem go round. But I've noticed it's kind of hard to convince girls you're not crazy or 'damaged goods' when you're seeing a shrink... Which makes the whole situation sorta oxymoronic, if that's a word. That only cost me 85 bucks to find out too! *Slaps head with shovel*
David's 'birthday party' was tonight. Just a couple people getting together and hanging out really, no big celebration, just good times. And while I was pissed at him over the whole 'back stabber' comment, I guess I'm over it. I don't blame him for saying it, I just wish he would realize that in all actuality I didn't and he was just being nieve with the situation at the time. It's just like with anything else that bugs me, in time, I just let it go. 'Cause in all actuality, if I didn't, no one would. So I have no beef with him, but I'm still a lil weary around him.
I hope nothing goes wrong with next week. I didn't fully realize it before, but I really need this. I need to just get away from everything in Davie county. Yeah, Rolo is coming with me, but then again, I'm not trying to get away from Rolo and he has things to do that weekend we're going to be up there. We're actually supposed to go camping while we're up there... Since I'm on the subject of the Western trip, I'm going to post a 'finalized' itinerary for those who were looking for it... I will leave for WCU no later than 4 PM on Friday the 18th. This puts me in town by around 7 HOPEFULLY considering rush hour traffic and what not. I'm going to be partying on Friday night in the Scott dorm area, maybe over at Doc's place 15 minutes away. Saturday will be spent runnin' around finding and hanging out with people I want/need to see. Saturday night, another round of partying, with who is still up in the air. Sunday, catching up with people (there's a lot of you to see and I want to see all of you!) I'm thinking by mid-day Monday or Tuesday Rolo and I will go and find a decent camping spot (weather permitting) and camp out for the remainder of the stay. This too, is still up in the air. All plans are up in the air actually, it makes the vacation less stressful and more fun. I'll be leaving the area either Wednsday or Thursday afternoon depending on what plans are made while I'm up there. Please reply via comments to give me info about when is a good time to catch you and what I need to know to get a hold of you once I'm up there! I have most of your numbers down in my book, but not all of them.
But yeah, it's 3 in the morning and I'm done posting for the moment so I'm going to play some online games and put off going to sleep for just a little while longer.