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I don't know whether it's good or bad that I went back and read old journal entries tonight, but it sure has me thinking. I don't know if I was lying to myself last july/august or lying to all of you, but looking back at the way things happened, those entries are a bunch of shit. What was I thinking? I mean really, what? First of all, I screwed Josh over. Big time. I take full responsibility for my behavior in that. I can't explain it, and probably never will be able to, but...I don't even know what to say. Looking back at the entries I understand a little more why Josh didn't see it coming, why he was so confused. Hell, I was confused at that point. And everything that happened with Brian...well...out of some respect for Josh I tried not to post/gush too much about it but...It was wrong to say the least. Josh did not deserve to be treated that way.