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[godsfallenangel]

i so long ago gave up the notion that i could hold you in my arms
you would be, all mine for all the rest of time
i let you go, with hopes of your returning
for i know that i cant keep you here and never let go
it was the hardest thing to see you go away
when you come back im forced to take it day by day
you hold me and your eyes say you care
but when we're not alone its as if im not even there
i cant understand you
i cant keep waiting for you
to decide whats going on in your head
i cant be the girl you can fall back on
the one who will never let you down
the whole while its tearing me up inside
sometimes i feel as if its too much to ask, to be number one on the list
i want whats best for you, and the futures closing in
i dont want to stand in your way of something so great
but please dont call on me when your empty of love
my heart wont allow the mixed signals you transcend
let me wish for you the stars in the sky
and pray that you will find the love of your life
dont let me wait for you to return
for when you'll whisper my name in love
id rather love you like a dear friend
then an occasional companion taking it day by day