tsk tsk, i slept until 4pm.
it's hard to eat. why? i dont know. perhaps its the stress i put myself under, or worrying too much. i don't know. i do know that anything i eat...comes up. it's tearing my stomach up and all i want to do is lay in bed.
i hate my house. i hated last night. and the boy with the amazing smile. not so amazing. i hung out with them last night...and he took his shirt off....way skinny...muscular but skinny. and he's a dork. he's a great guy...but my heart is elsewhere. sometimes i wish it wasn't. but most times i wish i was there. in his arms. maybe that is where my home is. it certainly isnt florida or ohio. everything is different. i justkgjnbdjksf. i want him.
i don't really want to go anywhere right now...but i know i'll get bored in a few hours, or the feeling in my stomach will get so big that i will want to go get drunk. i didnt drink at all last night. he did, he's so freaking amazing. i close my eyes and can see him. oh and i love it when he talks to me in bed. he does the sexy sleepy voice....soooo hot.
okay im done.
so far away yet i can breathe in your cologne. how's that for imagination?
xo.
i hate my house. i hated last night. and the boy with the amazing smile. not so amazing. i hung out with them last night...and he took his shirt off....way skinny...muscular but skinny. and he's a dork. he's a great guy...but my heart is elsewhere. sometimes i wish it wasn't. but most times i wish i was there. in his arms. maybe that is where my home is. it certainly isnt florida or ohio. everything is different. i justkgjnbdjksf. i want him.
i don't really want to go anywhere right now...but i know i'll get bored in a few hours, or the feeling in my stomach will get so big that i will want to go get drunk. i didnt drink at all last night. he did, he's so freaking amazing. i close my eyes and can see him. oh and i love it when he talks to me in bed. he does the sexy sleepy voice....soooo hot.
okay im done.
so far away yet i can breathe in your cologne. how's that for imagination?
xo.