Depressed.
I never post to this unless there's something bothering me. I'm depressed. I feel terrible and lonely.
I've recently met this girl Zora. She's incredible. She's everything that I want, and I know she cares about me as much as I care about her. She's a big geek, she's attractive, when I hug her it's the most comfortable hug ever. I can't even explain that last bit effectively. When I hug her, I feel like we're two pieces of a puzzle and we fit perfectly. That's how good it feels to hug/snuggle her. But she won't get involved in a relationship. There's something keeping her from trying to start a relationship with me and I don't know what it is. I know it isn't anything mental for her holding her back, all I know is that she made a promise to someone and that's what's holding her back. She doesn't like to talk about it and gets upset when it's brought up. I know she isn't waiting for someone. I just want to be with her. I've spent so long in meaningless short relationships and I've spent nearly the past two years trying to find someone that I enjoy being around. Someone that makes me feel comfortable and loved. Someone that isn't empty. Finally I find someone and we can't start something. I could easily fall head over heels for this girl. Very easily. I want to spend every day with her because I smile nonstop when I'm with her. *sigh*
It's been nearly two years without feelings like this, I'd be stupid not to persue it. For now, I guess I'll just stick with what I have and hope that things clear up down the road for her, because I want to keep her in my life for as long as humanly possible. I get along with her better than most anyone.
Oh well. Rant is over. I just needed to type it.
I've recently met this girl Zora. She's incredible. She's everything that I want, and I know she cares about me as much as I care about her. She's a big geek, she's attractive, when I hug her it's the most comfortable hug ever. I can't even explain that last bit effectively. When I hug her, I feel like we're two pieces of a puzzle and we fit perfectly. That's how good it feels to hug/snuggle her. But she won't get involved in a relationship. There's something keeping her from trying to start a relationship with me and I don't know what it is. I know it isn't anything mental for her holding her back, all I know is that she made a promise to someone and that's what's holding her back. She doesn't like to talk about it and gets upset when it's brought up. I know she isn't waiting for someone. I just want to be with her. I've spent so long in meaningless short relationships and I've spent nearly the past two years trying to find someone that I enjoy being around. Someone that makes me feel comfortable and loved. Someone that isn't empty. Finally I find someone and we can't start something. I could easily fall head over heels for this girl. Very easily. I want to spend every day with her because I smile nonstop when I'm with her. *sigh*
It's been nearly two years without feelings like this, I'd be stupid not to persue it. For now, I guess I'll just stick with what I have and hope that things clear up down the road for her, because I want to keep her in my life for as long as humanly possible. I get along with her better than most anyone.
Oh well. Rant is over. I just needed to type it.