Goodbye forever.
Do me a favor and think about everything I've done for you and everything you did to me. I'm not claiming to be an angel, but you neglected me so much. I let you keep the furniture with no money out of your pocket even though we agreed when we bought it that if we moved away from each other, whoever was keeping the couches would pay the other half to the other person. I got you a higher paying job to help you pay your higher bills from living alone. I have forgiven you each time you've put me through hell because you can't be happy with one person even though you put me through absolute shit for what? So you could get screwed over by each guy you persued other than me. I've supported you in all of your decisions. I tried to make anniversaries and birthdays something to remember. The list goes on. I have done so much for you because I loved you more than I've ever loved anyone in my life. I loved you so completely that I convinced myself that the good outweighed the bad. Then, when you end our friendship, I come over to give you the birthday present that I've already bought for you trying to give you a "no hard feelings, I still care about you" ending, and you yell at me about how I'm unreliable for not finishing your website and roll up your window. I would never disrespect you like that. You know respect is an important thing to me. So I open your door so you can't just ignore my words, and you kick me in the balls. Hard. You always accuse me of playing "mind games" but YOU'RE the one that's been playing the mind games by convincing me that I was playing mind games without knowing it. I used to hang my head and apologize because I didn't realize that I was doing it, but there's a reason I didn't realize it. I wasn't doing it. You just lost the best friend you will ever have. You're incapable of finding happiness because you can't just be CONTENT with something. Nothing is enough for you. Ever. Keep running your self-destructive course, because I want no part of it. Just know that if you realize that I'm not the devil and decide you still want to be friends, I will still welcome you back in to my life with open arms because I can never stop caring about you. You have been and will always be one of the most important parts of my life and no amount of distrust or anger can change that. I will ALWAYS have love for you, though I question that you know the true meaning of the word. Have a happy 21st. And the rest of your birthdays for that matter. I hope you open your eyes enough to see that this is nothing to end a friendship over.