Tearing me apart
I can't believe how I weak I am. Slowly, I'm losing all hope now. I'm slowly thinking about the break up and it's tearing me apart. I hate Spencer to death. He says to me, I place myself last.. "I place myself last?" Well let's see D&D and Magic is first, homework HAS to be second, me ..basically last. If he doesn't do homework, he will be grounded so I mean, I'm not putting it first. It is automatically first. I just wish someone can come mend my heart. I need God right now to be honest. I have so much weight upon my heart. It's not even funny. I just want to get on my knees and scream. People say I should think about myself but then I can't because that's selfish. He says he tries to be friends with everyone. I'm to the point, I wish he didn't have friends at all... God, it was so much simplier to get his damn attention. I will just be quieter now and not care. Why should I be all loving when he probably doesn't care..
With that bad news, I have more. I might be giving my puppy, Hope, away. .. Everytime I look at her, I cry. I'm like this sucks. We're too busy to care for her and we have to give her away. It sucks so bad and I just.. don't know what to do. Hopefully I can find a good person to take care of her. I don't want a dog abuser getting a hold of her... *Sighs* Well yeah, my life really sucks right now.. What more can I say...?
*Goes off to spend another evening in tears.*
With that bad news, I have more. I might be giving my puppy, Hope, away. .. Everytime I look at her, I cry. I'm like this sucks. We're too busy to care for her and we have to give her away. It sucks so bad and I just.. don't know what to do. Hopefully I can find a good person to take care of her. I don't want a dog abuser getting a hold of her... *Sighs* Well yeah, my life really sucks right now.. What more can I say...?
*Goes off to spend another evening in tears.*