the only constant is change
I had to be a prick to someone I care about today because I feel it's in their best interest. I don't want to be vague, but I have to. All I can say is, it's not anyone from my ever decreasing LJ community. To feel warmth, you must experience cold. I have to be cold right now. It's the only way she'll learn. She's naive to a fault. She doesn't want to know what I do. She keeps pushing for a friendship but I can't have that. I have too many good things going for me to even concern myself with it, however, I'm not the cold-hearted prick that I was. If I am cold, it's for good.
Make sense?
It shouldn't. It'll only make sense to me and very few others.
Why post an entry that only makes sense to you without making it private?
I really don't know. I never make posts private for several reasons. This one in particular; no fucking clue.
On a positive note, I finally had a chance to listen to the drunk mixtape I made up in Canada. I think it's tight and better than 99% of the shit dj's saturate the market with. That sounds arrogant but it's the truth. I made the transition from amateur to pro overnight and I'm not saying that because I'll be doing it for a living, I'm saying it cause I've uped my skills. Now, it's good, but I have to take it to great. Other Djs might have been doing this for longer than me, but you know what?, You'll never out-work me. I learn shit and master shit faster than these half-ass new-commers because I put in the work.
I never compare myself to others. I just feel like I'm not doing enough. I'm hustling like none other, but to me, it's still not enough. I don't sleep much cause I'm always planning, always working on my next moves, always always always keeping it moving. So much to do in such little time. My passions consume me.
But fuck it, I'll sleep when I die.
Make sense?
It shouldn't. It'll only make sense to me and very few others.
Why post an entry that only makes sense to you without making it private?
I really don't know. I never make posts private for several reasons. This one in particular; no fucking clue.
On a positive note, I finally had a chance to listen to the drunk mixtape I made up in Canada. I think it's tight and better than 99% of the shit dj's saturate the market with. That sounds arrogant but it's the truth. I made the transition from amateur to pro overnight and I'm not saying that because I'll be doing it for a living, I'm saying it cause I've uped my skills. Now, it's good, but I have to take it to great. Other Djs might have been doing this for longer than me, but you know what?, You'll never out-work me. I learn shit and master shit faster than these half-ass new-commers because I put in the work.
I never compare myself to others. I just feel like I'm not doing enough. I'm hustling like none other, but to me, it's still not enough. I don't sleep much cause I'm always planning, always working on my next moves, always always always keeping it moving. So much to do in such little time. My passions consume me.
But fuck it, I'll sleep when I die.