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I want a guy. One that likes sports and that I can go watch play. One that I can cheer for that will look at me up in the stands and give me that, "I love you baby" smile. One that will come and give me a big, sweaty hug after the game just to see me squirm. One that will have pictures of me all over his room and will point his favorite ones out to me every time I walk in. One that will listen to instrumental music with me in my room. One that will lay on my bed with me and ask me to tell him some random story. One that will lay outside with me on a chilly night, all wrapped up in a blanket with me and watch the stars. One that will make his screen name some romantic lyrics that everyone knows are meant for me. One that will send me flowers at times I don't expect at all. One that will call me up just to say "hey" and will sing to me on the phone. One that will listen to me cry and hold me tight when I don't want to let go. One that will get in play fights with me then tell me i am right just to see me smile. One that will watch all the Boy Meets World episodes with me, especially my favorite ones where Cory and Topanga are together. One that won't be weirded out by my family. One that will watch the Notebook and every other chick-flick there is. One that will stop by my house just to give me a kiss. And most of all, one that will love me for me.
I don't know.....
I mean seriously...do these kind of guys exsist?? Right now I don't belive it. Guys say things...then just totally lie to you. What great things....guys.
Can't live with them...can't live without them...I hate when people say that..but it's true. I just got finished with my first REAL relationship....and I kind of wish I was never in it .. only because I got so hurt when it ended.
Right now I'm doing ok. I've stopped crying everyday and have realized that I deserve better anyway. Right now I'm just not doing good even thinking about guys...or thinking there is one out there that could actually treat me right.
Anyway....I guess I'll have to be careful next time...not let my heart out so much.....
I'm so scared to love again...... = (