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[gods_bitty_one]

my mother

for my life
she's given hers

there is nothing that hurts more than this
i just cannot do this anymore
this being angry
because when i think about what it would mean for her to die
i realize she means the world to me
i have been her world for nearly twenty-four years
my world was shaped by her strength and her weakness
i have scars
that come as a result both from actions she took and actions she failed to take
but the scars become less and less visible
with each tear that streams down my cheeks
though they serve as a reminder of where i came from
they also serve as an indication of how far i have come
they no longer control me
they no longer keep me from dreaming
my mother has taught me to be proud of who i am
my mother has taught me never to settle
my mother has taught me that real beauty cannot be seen with the eyes
my mother has taught me what sacrifice is
my mother has taught me what honesty is
my mother has taught me what forgiveness is

she has given me everything
and now that i finally understand
she has nothing left to give

just so you know
and in case you don't
i love you mama