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[gods_a_slug]

more and more I hate people. More and more I don't want to be around them. I want to be by myself immersed in a book or movie or video game or just with my girlfriend. I think it might be working at Lake Compounce that's doing it. Being forced to deal with people 8 hours a day and having to smile and be nice while serving them... yeah... that's probably it. But I'm finding myself annoyed at little things... like when I know someone's faking a smile, or when I notice someone eating with thier mouth open. It's this delightful antisocial nausea... like imagine zooming in on someone with thier mouth full of food and chewing open liped and then putting it in slow motion with the sound on like SUPER LOUD!!! (yes with 3 exclamation points) and its like what I'm seeing. I still can be nice though. A smile and a kind word still catches peoples eyes but I am loath to do it now. I just don't care what people think of me anymore and to the people that refuse to forgive me I find myself now being less apologetic and more angry. I've said I was sorry for things and to some I apparently will never be forgiven or trusted again despite all the good things I've done in the past. So for those of you who that applies to. FUCK YOU... :) I mean that in the politest way possible. But seriously to hell with you. I'm sick and tired of trying to make other people happy with me. It's not something I have much patience for. But I'm sure its the job. yeah stupid lake compounce.

The Marquis de Carabas

PS still got one more thing to do on the way to 100% of Kingdom Hearts II. I am but a man jimminy have mercy.