this is assymetrical

[godotishere]

It seems that trying so hard to be everyone's catalyst has turned me into more of a traitorous politician-esque fake; or so everyone else seems to imagine. I wish that everyone could just exist together and not worry that everyone else is conspiring, or is insulting one another or only pretends to like one another. I wish that I could "run away, run away tonight". Hey, but running gets you no place, because one has to travel fast enough to stay in the same place as it is. It's hard enough trying to be everyone's friend as it is. There's something "beyond good and evil" that is lurking somewhere, but it's hard to find, and existing here, as I am now, is not assisting me in my quest. I'm not sure if I can really call it a quest, because really, I'm not so much looking to find something at the end, but merely trying to get out of here and see something different.
After today, I realized that the youth these days is INSANE. Why does every young person decide to play victim in their head? Why does everybody hate everything besides death-songs and anti-social friends. Why doesn't anyone else see the irony in that? ...so frustrating.
So after realizing that trying this hard--trying this hard to make everyone happy because it upsets me when it's any different--has gotten me nothing (besides certain disinformed labels) I figure I may as well not try anymore...
All I need is some "freetime"...(thanks kenna), where I can find my own way to be free.