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Oct 27, 2004 17:35

I was told that Krissy posted two of the comments from our last conversation in her journal. one was me saying "I hate you" the other was me saying "fuck you", to her.

i dont want any comments from my readers on this entry. i really dont care what you think, or where this all goes. but, for the sake of my own reputation and of your minds. here is the full, unbiased length of the conversation (minus the grettings and small talk -'whats up?', etc.)

Krissy had been asking me to come, aside from giving me her invitation, for the past few days. harping a bit, i felt.

and actually ive changed my mind -Krissy may comment on this entry. if she feels that ive misrepresented the situation at all, then she can comment with her point of view, insults, etc. Readers, be sure to view the comments page for her corrections.

PbandJaay (7:13:05 PM): come to mi pahtay!
PbandJaay (7:13:07 PM): ...>>;
HisHalfElf (7:13:48 PM): lol, in the end, i prolly wiiiiill. but im still fleshing out my plans.
PbandJaay (7:14:06 PM): i know..but...:-(
PbandJaay (7:14:22 PM): i gave you the thingy ahead of time..hoping you'd make at least an hour for me..
PbandJaay (7:14:26 PM): but whatever you want.
HisHalfElf (7:14:31 PM): jk; dv
HisHalfElf (7:14:33 PM): hey~
HisHalfElf (7:14:34 PM): !!!
HisHalfElf (7:14:51 PM): look dawg, i will make it if i can. dont try an guilt me into shit.
HisHalfElf (7:14:54 PM): my love
HisHalfElf (7:15:11 PM): i will come if i come. and i probably will, as i just said. but do no try and guilt me into anythingf
PbandJaay (7:15:39 PM): i wasnt guilting you..don't always think i'm up to something
PbandJaay (7:15:45 PM): i was just thinking..
PbandJaay (7:16:19 PM): whether you come or not is your decision. i won't like you less if you don't. sorry if i always seem to have motives behind what i say.
HisHalfElf (7:17:07 PM): dude..i was like, "im not sure if ill come" and you were like "well gave you that invitation early so that you wouldnt make plans" of whatever
HisHalfElf (7:17:14 PM): i mean..just dont force this on me
HisHalfElf (7:17:44 PM): like..dawg, i just dont want to set anything before i know what my options are
HisHalfElf (7:17:45 PM): and i dont
PbandJaay (7:18:58 PM): i gave it to you early cause everyone has plans by the time i give it to them normally. i was just hoping i'd get plans made with me first. and dude..fine. i hope you get a better option. i didn't want to be like "PICK ME PICK ME" but everyone picks shit over my things..like sara's house. but nevermind, i guess you don't get my POV. nevermind. *Drops the subject* i always get you all heated over the dumbest things.
HisHalfElf (7:20:51 PM): dude, its not like i dont want to hang out with you -i would love it if you would come with me where ever i end up, if not at your place. im just trying to facilitate, ok? i get your view.
HisHalfElf (7:21:01 PM): and i really dont want to talk about this now.
PbandJaay (7:21:14 PM): whatever floats your boat.
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Session concluded at 7:21:21 PM
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PbandJaay (7:23:10 PM): i'm so glad this is my last year. :-)
HisHalfElf (7:23:47 PM): oh? well then i am glad for you too.
HisHalfElf (7:24:03 PM): anything making it particularly special?
PbandJaay (7:24:45 PM): yes. the fact i'm getting out of all the immature shit that goes on in high school. :-)
HisHalfElf (7:24:58 PM): :-)how nice for you.
PbandJaay (7:25:14 PM): i like the fact you're mocking me
HisHalfElf (7:26:08 PM): i like the fact that the statements your making are derived from me not commiting my Halloween to this.
HisHalfElf (7:26:15 PM): to you
HisHalfElf (7:26:19 PM): youre*
PbandJaay (7:26:34 PM): actually its not. i was moving on. but good try. you always get so pissed over the smallest thing.
HisHalfElf (7:27:18 PM): *shrug* thats what they tell me. perhaps though, once those people grow, theyll realize my reasons for being so apprehensive.
HisHalfElf (7:27:22 PM): and maybe not.
PbandJaay (7:28:36 PM): actually. maybe you should be a little more understanding and open. maybe you could look from other people's stand-points for once. and not jump to conclusions or overreat. maybe aaron, it is YOU who needs to grow. grow to be more compassionate.
PbandJaay (7:28:51 PM): overreact*
HisHalfElf (7:29:11 PM): maybe, but maybe you have no idea what youre talking about, my friend.
HisHalfElf (7:29:20 PM): do you know me, in your opinion?
PbandJaay (7:29:56 PM): i don't know even the half of you and you prolly even know less of me. why? cause we'll talk a little seriously and you go off on a pissed off tantrum if you don't get things seen in your way.
PbandJaay (7:30:01 PM): so we never go anywhere
HisHalfElf (7:31:17 PM): ah, seems a bit pointless then, dont it? i dont apologize for getting 'pissed', but i do wish that you could understand my reasoning.
HisHalfElf (7:31:43 PM): not that you dont have that ability, you just choose not to, it seems.
HisHalfElf (7:32:07 PM): trying to tell me that i get upset too easily
PbandJaay (7:35:39 PM): don't apoligize. you obviously think you're perfect. you're too harsh. you are not open at all. you need to learn to debate, not full out argue when we differ in opinions. thats why you're friends with people who just go "OH I LOVE YOU AARON ALL YOU SAY IS TRUUUUUUUE. YOU SO HOTT" because when someone like me, is opinionated, you get all over-heated and decide to fight with me on it. you don't have a reasoning behind this party for example. i'm sorry i might of hoped i'd be a little more important than others for once. i'm sorry that you had no other definate plans yet and i was hoping you'd pick me and decide on me..not looking to see if something better comes along. i'm sorry for even trying for you. because there is too many other screaming girls wanting you around. and too many other people worth your time. because you don't know me. and i don't know you. and we'll never know each other because you don't seem to want to learn what i'm about. you'd rather be pissed at me.
HisHalfElf (7:37:36 PM): you are absolutely fucking wrong. im sick of this conversation.
PbandJaay (7:37:42 PM): no im not
HisHalfElf (7:37:52 PM): fuck you, yes you are. Krissy that is hurtful shit.
PbandJaay (7:38:01 PM): whatever aaron deal with the truth
HisHalfElf (7:38:04 PM): how dare you?! you dont know a damn thing.
HisHalfElf (7:38:05 PM): r
PbandJaay (7:38:14 PM): i wouldn't just flat out lie about how you're treating me
HisHalfElf (7:38:19 PM): god damn you
PbandJaay (7:38:27 PM): stop cussing at me you're being rude
HisHalfElf (7:38:46 PM): ..no. get away from me, stop talking
HisHalfElf (7:38:49 PM): youre so fucking wrong
HisHalfElf (7:38:50 PM): i hate it
HisHalfElf (7:38:54 PM): ask fucking Carolyn
HisHalfElf (7:39:00 PM): none of that shit is true
PbandJaay (7:39:02 PM): how am i wrong?
PbandJaay (7:39:04 PM): defend yourself
PbandJaay (7:39:10 PM): say you listen to me
PbandJaay (7:39:13 PM): tell me you dont get pissed
PbandJaay (7:39:47 PM): wow, did someone actually point out almighty aarons faults?
HisHalfElf (7:41:15 PM): lol, alright. im collected. thank you for this, its been educational.

im sorry that you feel that way. hope your party goes well. it would be nice if we could stop talking
HisHalfElf (7:41:21 PM): anything else youd like to point out?
PbandJaay (7:41:46 PM): haha. so you put on a facade?
HisHalfElf (7:42:24 PM): yea, pretty much. i see no other way,
PbandJaay (7:42:41 PM): why? because you can't just accept that you may have faults.
PbandJaay (7:42:49 PM): geez..some people are some immature.
HisHalfElf (7:42:55 PM): i hate you.
PbandJaay (7:43:06 PM): i can't believe i wasted time trying to get you to respect me
HisHalfElf (7:43:19 PM): me neither. and its not respect youre looking for.
PbandJaay (7:43:37 PM): yes it is..what do you think im looking for?
PbandJaay (7:43:41 PM): hun, grow up.
HisHalfElf (7:43:49 PM): if thats what you wanted, you could have just asked.
PbandJaay (7:43:56 PM): friends usually give their friends the time of day to be with them.
HisHalfElf (7:44:09 PM): well im sorry i cant be the friend you want me to be
PbandJaay (7:44:20 PM): my mom just said you "waiting for choices" was the rudest thing a person can do
PbandJaay (7:44:25 PM): :-)
PbandJaay (7:44:30 PM): you can't be a friend period.
PbandJaay (7:44:38 PM): you use your looks to get you by.
HisHalfElf (7:45:08 PM): *shrug* youre wrong. but im not going to argue it
HisHalfElf (7:45:12 PM): please leave me alone..
PbandJaay (7:45:44 PM): really? why don't you just push aside your need to never look at other peoples veiws..and grow up..and debate this with me.
PbandJaay (7:46:06 PM): when you grow up..tell me what you think..stop using petty "i hate you's" and "fuck you's" and debate me i'll leave you be
HisHalfElf (7:46:14 PM): i hate yous?
HisHalfElf (7:46:19 PM): thats so interesting
PbandJaay (7:46:28 PM): HisHalfElf (6:42:58 PM): i hate you.
HisHalfElf (7:46:31 PM): i did say that, yes. but only once. and your the first person i think ive said it to
PbandJaay (7:46:38 PM): you try to be all big and mighty and you use petty comments
HisHalfElf (7:46:47 PM): lol, so do you, my friend
PbandJaay (7:46:50 PM): you can't even defend yourself
PbandJaay (7:46:55 PM): im not your friend you said
HisHalfElf (7:46:58 PM): i cant? or i choose not to
PbandJaay (7:47:04 PM): you can't
HisHalfElf (7:47:07 PM): oh, sorry. im used to saying it to you
PbandJaay (7:47:07 PM): you just go "go away"
PbandJaay (7:47:13 PM): waaaa leave me be waaaa
HisHalfElf (7:47:14 PM): yes, i would like you to let me be
PbandJaay (7:47:30 PM): no. because you're being childish.
HisHalfElf (7:47:33 PM): lol, right
HisHalfElf (7:47:39 PM): ok, this isnt going anywhere
HisHalfElf (7:47:44 PM): if you want a debate, we can have one
HisHalfElf (7:47:47 PM): im not going to sit here
HisHalfElf (7:47:51 PM): and have you say this to me
HisHalfElf (7:47:57 PM): im sorry, but i demand respect
PbandJaay (7:48:01 PM): you are. look at you. could you be any less grown up? if you were grown up..you'd stop being such a pussy.
HisHalfElf (7:48:05 PM): and if you wont give it to me, then i wont give it to you
PbandJaay (7:48:07 PM): you don't give respect aaron, dammit.
PbandJaay (7:48:11 PM): you won't get it from no where.
HisHalfElf (7:48:23 PM): alright. well we'll just see i guess.
HisHalfElf (7:48:34 PM): bye for now. and please dont IM me on any other screen names.
PbandJaay signed off at 7:48:38 PM.

i blocked her there
and in this next bit, she IMed Aleshia, who passed her comment on to me.

Aleshia 6034 (7:50:45 PM): PbandJaay (7:49:37 PM): this is my final commenty
PbandJaay (7:50:21 PM): don't worry, aaron. i won't waste my precious time on an asshole like you..bothering to get on other s/n's just to IM you. unlike all you other "adoring" fascinated-with-aaron girly fans..i won't coming running for you

Aleshia 6034 (7:50:52 PM): (just the messanger)

in my own defense, i have a lot of friends. i was trying to facilitate, see as many of them as possible.
i didnt want to say "yes" to anything right away. didnt want to commit myself until i knew what was going on with everyone. (for Halloween)

also, i couldnt argue what she was saying because..i had nothing to use, nothing to pull from. because she didnt know me well, because we didnt have any real history together. there was no possible way i could have created anything in the way of an effective argument. i had no support. and that was actually a bit scary. sitting there, reading those things, and knowing that there was pretty much nothing i could say that would hold any weight.

and thats where this all came from.

Carolyn and her broken computer are to be admired.

> Jaimes party is on the 29th. an estimated 30 people are going, according to Christina.

> Music For Unity is on the 30th. i might meet with Camielle ahead of time, and then ride with her. also might dress in drag. havnt totally decided yet. drag is what i was originally going to go in, but ive lost some motivation for that. so we'll see.

> Halloween is on the 31st. dont yet know what Im doing for that.

> another party i have on the 1st. this ones a secret.

> a free day on the 2nd.

-Aaron
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