only dead inside at lest i hope

[godmusthateme2]

well i know most of you dont even rember my face let alone any thing about me....
and that sucks cause only thing i have to live for are memoreis of the the good time i have had with all of you guys
but know i have nothing i cant go out cause i dont know if i even rember how to kick back and have a good time plus how many people even want me around i have been out of the loop for god knows how long and i cant have it any more. every friday night i sit at home i just think about what it will be like when im older and then i can just think of the nothingness witch i have become and then i dream of death cause at lest killing my sell would give me some thing to do for a little bit
every time my cell phone rings and its a wrong number or its my mother i just want to scream

all i ever wanted was not to be forgoten when i die but now im forgoten in life and it makes me to wish for death cause now there is no hope to be rembered

so if anyone reads this ........ you may just conster my self a lost cause and the next time yall would see me will be on my death bed but how will any one know when that day comes so pray for my lost soul and cause im a lost cause