Oh God
So I came to the library today,just a quiet day.Flip plops,shorts,tank top ya know.I had to wait for an hour for the computer so I grabbed a Sonic Youth cd and sat down to do some homework while I waited.Fuck....I started working on my second step and holy shit is my head swimin'.I keep having to take beaks becouse it is just to much.I just get choked up.It hurt.Im writing about three things for my homework.1.What do I think "my" God is.2.How has God hurt me.3.What do I want God to do for me.I knew I had resented God but man.Putting all of this stuf on paper makes me see just how much I blamed him for.I just started and I have three pages and im about to fucking cry.I know today that occourences in my life where not Gods fault.Just life.I knew I couldnt move forward with recovery unless I let go o my resentments toward God.I just never knew there where so many things I resented him for.Fucking forgive me.