Now lets make-believe that I can handle it...

[godlo7esugly]

I fucking love my mom so much. I don't know how much more I can take of my father (never mistake that for "dad") disrespecting her, i'm going to get kicked out of my house for standing up for her. I wish she would just leave, she is just such a great person all together and there is no reason she should have to deal with this. She doesen't wanna up and leave cause she is the only one supporting George and I right now, so were both trying to get our shit together as fast as we can so my mom can be happy and not have to worry about us beaing fucked with nothing. So I'm finishing (hopefully) my g.e.d test tomorow, and once I have that I can finally go to basic training and the signing bonus should be enough to get me to a good start so I can actually start real life and stop beaing a burdon to my mom. I just feel so bad about all the shit I have done wrong in life. I woulden't be typeing this if I just did whut most people concider the normal path in life, I just wish I made better choices when I was younger... You never know how much a simple choice that does not seem that big at the time can chance the whole outcome of you life. Never thought my stuborness and arrogance was THAT BAD of a thing, turns out small personal trates make a world of difference in the long-run. I'm not going to take back any thing I have done, in hope that people might listen (not hear, actually listen) when I say not to do something that completely fucked me over. I FUCKING LOVE every single one of you that have stayed my friend and still showed my respect even with the obvious fact i'm a complete moron and every choice I make seems to be the wrong one. Just wanted to say thanks for not disrespecting me and seeing through my stupid front of acting like I don't care that I put up. Once I collect my self again and I start to re-surface I hope to start up a social life again and find a few people to confide in. Ok, I'mah stop typeing this now... but please don't comment on this just cause for once i'm actually typeing whut I feel, kinda got a feeling there are a few people that might do that. Alright i'm outtie.

Love your life, quite cliche but I guess thats me...