heated argument
Have you ever felt lost? out of control? a tyrant?
I do.
I don't really know what came over me, but it just seemed like a volcano erupted in me. I suddenly lost control and vented my frustrations and unhappiness, and no matter how much I tried to explain why I felt like that it wasn't justified and I should just follow.
I seriously feel like a tyrant now, although I do not 100% feel that I did the wrong thing, but neither do I feel that I did something right. I believe I have to take up some responsibility here, but still unjustification remains in my heart. Am I having an attitude problem here? Am I emotional and sensitive?
perhaps I am. I guess I LOST IT today. I thought I was done with the tasks, i abided and submitted... I lost it on this task. I am not perfect if no one ever realized. I tried to do work with diligence but sometimes expectations and demands will climb over what I can actually do, cause people assume I can be "better". Its tiring.
I think the concept of the childhood development really plays a big part in our lives. Like if you have a poor relationship with a d mother during ur childhood for about 15 years, you will tend to fear people who LOOK like, TALK like and FUNCTION like her. And even though I explained, I cannot seem to find a better or a more eloquent reasoning for my reactions.
I am really not very good with words, or finding the right words to say.
*more public posts are found at www.godlittleangelvonz.blogspot.com!! :)
im still around!
I do.
I don't really know what came over me, but it just seemed like a volcano erupted in me. I suddenly lost control and vented my frustrations and unhappiness, and no matter how much I tried to explain why I felt like that it wasn't justified and I should just follow.
I seriously feel like a tyrant now, although I do not 100% feel that I did the wrong thing, but neither do I feel that I did something right. I believe I have to take up some responsibility here, but still unjustification remains in my heart. Am I having an attitude problem here? Am I emotional and sensitive?
perhaps I am. I guess I LOST IT today. I thought I was done with the tasks, i abided and submitted... I lost it on this task. I am not perfect if no one ever realized. I tried to do work with diligence but sometimes expectations and demands will climb over what I can actually do, cause people assume I can be "better". Its tiring.
I think the concept of the childhood development really plays a big part in our lives. Like if you have a poor relationship with a d mother during ur childhood for about 15 years, you will tend to fear people who LOOK like, TALK like and FUNCTION like her. And even though I explained, I cannot seem to find a better or a more eloquent reasoning for my reactions.
I am really not very good with words, or finding the right words to say.
*more public posts are found at www.godlittleangelvonz.blogspot.com!! :)
im still around!