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I'm beginning to realize that i am more perceptive than i initially thought. Being in situations with friends no longer holds the same allure it once did. I feel more and more like a loner as my days pass by here at home. I am spending time with all of my friends, and i do enjoy all the time we have together, but i feel like i need to be alone. It's weird for me to feel this way. I am pretty much a bubbling socialite but I guess i highly value my time alone. Yet at the same time I'm anxious for i feel as if i need to do something or need to go somewhere, but then when i follow out on these feelings i realize that i was just peachy doing nothing. Im tired of feeling anxious. There is no delineation in my future. I think this is where the anxiety stems from. I have no real plans for myself and i feel almost lost. True i live life to the fullest day to day, but i don't feel that any of my activities are preparing me or setting the foundation for my future. I am mollified with the knowledge that im still young and i have a ways to go before i need to be really critical but i still feel as if im wasting time.