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I live four, almost five, hours away, in Massachusetts. I miss my friends from home, and my family, and just being here (home for Thanksgiving). I miss all of it terribly, but I've been living on my own for two years now, in a different state, and I've managed. I've built up a decent life for myself. I have a good job, and a few (VERY few) friends, and a wonderful boyfriend that I love very dearly. We're talking about getting a place together when my lease is up at the end of the summer. The thing is, I'm starting to wonder if I can afford to live out there. I don't know. It's been getting harder and harder, and I'm getting deeper and deeper into debt. I never finished college (made it through freshman year ... barely), and I want to go back, but I can't afford it. I need a second job to afford FOOD but I can't get one. I want to move back home, but I don't want to give up. I want to be with my family, but I don't want to lose my boyfriend (he lives an hour away from me ... in New Hampshire). I'm so torn. I'm afriad to move home, and I'm afraid to stay. Why can't this be easier?