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I really don't enjoy calling people, especially for personal reasons. I have a couple of reasons for this, and the lay within a certain 'personal call' paradigm of mine. This paradigm consists of a goal-based calling system: I call to ask if someone would like to do something in the real, as opposed to talking and chatting over a phone line.
Here are the aforementioned reasons:
1) I feel that phone calls are too abrupt. I interupt something, perhaps. The two people are just there.
2) I usually have no idea of what to do, as in that paradigm based goal of doing something. So I usually just say, 'Wanna do something?', and that speaks of a dejected desperation of boy bored.
3) In the event of rejection, I feel pathetic, like I should be doing something, that I should in fact have planned something.
Oh well.
In other news (ha, news), I think I may be a sadist. Just so you know.
Also, I think sadist have a bad rap. Sadists find inflicting pain as a means of deriving pleasure, correct? This does not mean that a sadist causes pain all the time. We impose a bit of control over our own mechanisms of pleasure. You don't see me masturbating in public constantly, do you?
And if you do, please inform me by way of memo.
Here are the aforementioned reasons:
1) I feel that phone calls are too abrupt. I interupt something, perhaps. The two people are just there.
2) I usually have no idea of what to do, as in that paradigm based goal of doing something. So I usually just say, 'Wanna do something?', and that speaks of a dejected desperation of boy bored.
3) In the event of rejection, I feel pathetic, like I should be doing something, that I should in fact have planned something.
Oh well.
In other news (ha, news), I think I may be a sadist. Just so you know.
Also, I think sadist have a bad rap. Sadists find inflicting pain as a means of deriving pleasure, correct? This does not mean that a sadist causes pain all the time. We impose a bit of control over our own mechanisms of pleasure. You don't see me masturbating in public constantly, do you?
And if you do, please inform me by way of memo.