I feel like shit warmed over twice, dumped in a mud puddle, and then taken inside and baked...
Seriously though I'm sick of feeling shitty. I want to feel good! I can't sit at the computer too long or my back hurts. I try to clean and my hip hurts. I try to relax and I get dizzy. I try to eat and I throw up. I take a bath and have trouble breathing. Well I think you all get the point. I burst into tears today from it. Was literally sobbing for a good ten minuts and sniffling and crying for another twenty or so. I'm supposed to be cleaning house but it hurts my hip so bad cause the way my body moves when I sweep or mop which is what I need to be doing. I'm going to have to enlist my dad's help tomorrow to finish it all. I would really rather not do that though cause he works all night and I want him to get some sleep. He wakes up around 1pm or so and then he only has a few hours to enjoy his day before he is packing it up to go to work again. My mom of course is usueless to ask her for anything. Her back either hurts or her hip. AT least I'm trying to work through my pain and discomfort. I think mayby I'm just frustrated with the whole situation. I keep reminding myself that I only have about five weeks before baby is due and then my body will not be so burdened but then I remember that even without the extra weight of baby I still have to put up with sleepless nights, a screaming infant, dirty diapers for two and half years, constantly monitoring my child... Motherhood begins at conception and as far as I can tell never gets any easier. I know I'm ranting about it but I can't sleep and I hurt all the time and I just feel like I can't take anymore. So I say let me rant if it helps.
Anthony is being wonderfull and talking to me a lot. He never gets mad at any of my mood swings, he lets me off the phone if I'm in too much pain to talk, and he always talks to me when I call him or message him. I'm not really complaining to my parents. My dad sympathizes of course but only to a certain point and my mom just compares all my symptoms to one of her three pregnancies. Casey would be sympathtic I am sure but she has enough problems without my complaining to her about everything. *sigh* Now I have heartburn AGAIN and it's upsetting my tummy... you know I have to take three or four Benadryl a night just to not be sick immediatly after waking up in the morning. The medicine makes me sleep but I can't rest. I doubt I've slept more than three hours straight without waking up in the last month. So that plus the medicine adds to my grogginess all day. What I wouldn't give just to feel good for one day.
I think I'm done ranting for now. TY livejournal where would I be without you?
Anthony is being wonderfull and talking to me a lot. He never gets mad at any of my mood swings, he lets me off the phone if I'm in too much pain to talk, and he always talks to me when I call him or message him. I'm not really complaining to my parents. My dad sympathizes of course but only to a certain point and my mom just compares all my symptoms to one of her three pregnancies. Casey would be sympathtic I am sure but she has enough problems without my complaining to her about everything. *sigh* Now I have heartburn AGAIN and it's upsetting my tummy... you know I have to take three or four Benadryl a night just to not be sick immediatly after waking up in the morning. The medicine makes me sleep but I can't rest. I doubt I've slept more than three hours straight without waking up in the last month. So that plus the medicine adds to my grogginess all day. What I wouldn't give just to feel good for one day.
I think I'm done ranting for now. TY livejournal where would I be without you?