sinking
How do you acheive greatness? thats supposedly the writers block promt today and to tell you the truth I'm really not to sure what greatness is. I used to believe it was acheiving everything you strived for however everything i work towards I acheive. I'm not trying to come off as a goody-goody or an over-acheiver I'm really just a hard worker. However I'm not happy. and obviously it's obvious or I wouldn't be crying all the time. So greatness I suppose is more about being happy with where you are in life.
I know I'm depressed. Its really evident probably more to me than to alot of those around me. No one really wants to hear what I have to say but it doesn't matter because in the end sharing doesn't make me feel better. I have no idea how I'm supposed to feel okay losing everyone and everything. Its been building up that I know and I've been worried for quite awhile however I really have no idea what triggered it or brought it on. I know this is rambling. I just need to write it down. to learn from myself. I was extremly stressed last semester with no time managment to speak of and yet I was happy or at least semi-happy and now this semester where I'm coasting on a certain level of decent grades and decent time managment I'm miserable. yeah miserable describes it well.
I know I'm depressed. Its really evident probably more to me than to alot of those around me. No one really wants to hear what I have to say but it doesn't matter because in the end sharing doesn't make me feel better. I have no idea how I'm supposed to feel okay losing everyone and everything. Its been building up that I know and I've been worried for quite awhile however I really have no idea what triggered it or brought it on. I know this is rambling. I just need to write it down. to learn from myself. I was extremly stressed last semester with no time managment to speak of and yet I was happy or at least semi-happy and now this semester where I'm coasting on a certain level of decent grades and decent time managment I'm miserable. yeah miserable describes it well.