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I am finding that Lewis Carroll is one of my new favorite authors. I found this book from the late 1800's in a used book store that is a collection of all of his stories. I'm also finding that it is a more than needed escape for me, to read, that is after these long stressful days at me job.
I am wondering when I am ever going to get so sick of this that I just give up. I seriously hate my job and I cannnot find anything new out there, I've been trying for a few months now. The people I work with are not real to me. They are vicious, hateful and manipulative. Its all competition to see who can climb the highest up the ladder to being the queen bee. Its sickening and I hate it.
I am getting back into painting portraits of random things and people again. Some of them that I am still planning out will be featured on the hyperborean commoriom. Painting, like reading, soothes my stressed-out mind.
I have a three day weekend in two weeks from now. I'm thinking it would be best for me to get out of town for a little bit and try to not sit in my room all day and night. I ahve literally shut myself off and I'm thinking that that isnt the best remedy for this depression/anxiety. I'm going to make myself plan something out, something different.
I'm also working on a wierd slowed down demented song. I dont think it will ever pop up on an epicene cd or anything like that, its just for soundtracking my life right now. I have been posting small clips of it on my myspace but I'm going to finish it up this weekend and put the whole thing on there.
I started drinking heavily again after a break from the booze. Strangely it doesn't seem to be affecting me like normally. Maybe I'm that jaded now, who knows..
I am wondering when I am ever going to get so sick of this that I just give up. I seriously hate my job and I cannnot find anything new out there, I've been trying for a few months now. The people I work with are not real to me. They are vicious, hateful and manipulative. Its all competition to see who can climb the highest up the ladder to being the queen bee. Its sickening and I hate it.
I am getting back into painting portraits of random things and people again. Some of them that I am still planning out will be featured on the hyperborean commoriom. Painting, like reading, soothes my stressed-out mind.
I have a three day weekend in two weeks from now. I'm thinking it would be best for me to get out of town for a little bit and try to not sit in my room all day and night. I ahve literally shut myself off and I'm thinking that that isnt the best remedy for this depression/anxiety. I'm going to make myself plan something out, something different.
I'm also working on a wierd slowed down demented song. I dont think it will ever pop up on an epicene cd or anything like that, its just for soundtracking my life right now. I have been posting small clips of it on my myspace but I'm going to finish it up this weekend and put the whole thing on there.
I started drinking heavily again after a break from the booze. Strangely it doesn't seem to be affecting me like normally. Maybe I'm that jaded now, who knows..