Crazy

[goddessmillenia]

I can't believe I'm actually doing this. I must be insane, but then again... when your in love. I'm starting a committed relationship with Jason. Scary huh? I promise I'm not some clone or doppelganger or pod person, this is really me, Erica. Despite the fact that I'm terrified it just feels right. I also told him that threesomes between us and another person are ok, because we make an excellent team like that. But anything we do (or anyone we do for that matter) we do together. He really made me sit there and think about it too. He knows that if I screw up it will crush me, and he doesn't want to see me hurt like that. He honest to gods cares about me first. I trust him, and that is such a hard thing for me to do. Does it seem like this is happening to fast? It almost seems like a dream to me. I don't think I've felt this happy before. I think I've gone over the edge, I've been balancing so long on the brink of insanity that this has finally pushed me over. I hope someone out there understands what I'm saying. All I can really think about now is how I feel bad for being upset as Dezy for always being with Brandon - if this is anything like she feels then I completely understand now. I just don't feel right when I;m not with him. I want to spend all this time with him. I'm sorry Dezy, but I think I understand now.

Much love to all my friends
Erica