Sometimes you just don't want to wake up...

[goddesslori]

So, about a month ago, Steven and I fought and he was going to end our relationship saying that I just need to work on things. I managed to get him to give me the chance to do that, which I have been. I haven't been drinking, trying to get my mind straight, and all kinds of other positive changes. Now on Saturday, he tells me that he thinks we need a break and need to live in different places. This coming from a man who asked me to leave everything behind in Florida and move here to be with him. He said he loved me and wanted to be married to me at some point. So much for that. He says that he does still love me and care about me and would help me get into a new place or would pay for me to move back to Florida. I don't feel that there is anything left for me there, so that is not an option.

I just don't understand how someone can say they love a person, the relationship is improving, but they don't want to be with you.

At least i haven't gotten drunk and wallowed in my own misery or cut myself. So that is an accomplishment for me. Granted I've cried almost non stop this weekend and at times wished i wouldn't wake up after going to sleep. He went to stay at his mom's for the weekend 3 hours away.

My life really sucks sometimes.