If I ever true felt like an ass this would be it
I sit here in front of my computer after taking a shower and I am realizing just how much I feel like shit. Its not like yesterday where I had a Migraine and slept for 20 hours no, its the I slept for ten more and now I have a sore throat, headache and now a runny nose. You know it is not like one of the most incredible people in this world is leaving my grasp. Now all I feel I can do watch as she slips from my presence and goes on to persue a new chapter in her life. I feel like all I can do is watch. I am in pain because I hurt so much from being nauseated, and headaches. I feel like I am at war with myself. I have been in so much pain recently that I now know what it means to pass out from pain and nausea. I know what day it is, but I have no clue how I got here. I know I went to the hospital tuesday... that is it. I know I ate last night, I played wow and was in so much pain again that I passed out. This I know, if I called people I have a vague clue of it, if I talked to people it is the same boat sorry. Right now I feel like I want to die and not some oh woe is me kind of way either. I am feeling like I cant keep going on feeling like this. It is killing me to lose my friend and not be able to say goodbye. It is killing me that they no not what is wrong with me. I need to stop here besides the tears making this hard. I dont have the attention to go on.
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