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I hate when I do this. I actually was happy for a week and a half. Then someone yelled about something that I was involved in but totally clueless about. That started my own self attack. I keep thinking about how I keep screwing up at everything I enjoy. I like school so I keep screwing up so I never finish. I like jump rope so I piss everyone off. I like improv and playing at the faire yet I suck everytime I am on stage. I need to find a way to get away from this. I love teaching and doing stuff yet I screw up everything I want to do. I wish I would forgive myself and then I think and laugh because I am literally my worst enemy. I still replay every bad date I have had whenever I see a guy who is cute so I don't start getting expectations to get told that I am fat and weird.