Putting this in a numbered list would make it look orderly.
Had a dream last night in which I was at one of those nail places with the awesome Asian ladies getting a manicure and pedicure. Half-way through, though, a bunch of Important People come in and I am abandoned with my nails undone and nail polish peeling off my toenails. I wake up before the end and feel cheated out of my manicure. I would say this is due to a deep-seated insecurity related to feeling unimportant, but as I'm currently living with two people who place my importance in their lives above everything to an almost annoying degree, the dream probably symbolizes more my deep-seated need for a pedicure.
I do really wish I had someone to talk to right now. This is weird to say because I have people here who would definitely let me talk, but I am reluctant to burden them. Isn't that sad? Mom offered me counseling (as in, funds for) to "get over this" and I got defensive. I don't think there's anything wrong with what I'm feeling right now. I mean, it's not enough that the marriage thing is fucked up, but my unemployment claim is "under investigation," though I did everything they told me to and was told ahead of time my move to Louisiana wouldn't impact my claim, and I am now broke, behind on paying bills, and depending on my parents for everything. Also, prone to run-on sentences.
I sent in an application to volunteer at the local domestic violence shelter. Haven't heard anything back.
Really with I could visit my friends on the North Shore, but broke-ass can't afford the gas and tolls to get there. I miss you guys.
This is what I have as it serves for news.
Oh, and, GO SAINTS.
That is all.