There's no way of getting around this...
My self destruct style for relationships is: sabotage. That's right. I make them hate me.
What did Jesse do in the past week and a half?
Was brave and went to a concert by herself to see an old friend play in a band. Friend, B, had no idea I was coming to see him. Things were fun and went really really well.
Things went really well up until Friday. When I maybe called one too many times. Normal part of the brain went "You should stop now. This is maybe too much." Insistent part of the brain went "Try again. Maybe you'll get him now. TRY AGAIN DAMNIT."
I feel like an ass.
What did Jesse do in the past week and a half?
Was brave and went to a concert by herself to see an old friend play in a band. Friend, B, had no idea I was coming to see him. Things were fun and went really really well.
Things went really well up until Friday. When I maybe called one too many times. Normal part of the brain went "You should stop now. This is maybe too much." Insistent part of the brain went "Try again. Maybe you'll get him now. TRY AGAIN DAMNIT."
I feel like an ass.