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I'm not feeling well. I don't know what's wrong...well, i kind of do.
I've been up north visiting my Grandam this past week and I decided to text a friend I hadn't talked to in a while. It ended up getting into a discussion about the boy I like. She doesn't approve and said she "doesn't trust" him. Then she had to say goodbye because her fuck buddy friend was over. So the next day she texts me again and says we never finished our convo...I was already pissed from before because her basis of not trusting him was a load of bs. Anyways, she basically made me feel like shit and said because I told him how I feel awhile back I'm "forcing him" into a relationship. I'm not. I wanted to get it off my chest that I had been crying and upset about things and apparently that makes me forcing him....I told her specifically I don't know if he likes me back but I think he does. I told her repeatedly that I'm done talking about him and she replied "because you know i'm right?" I told her "No, because you don't approve that I like someone. I've never even had a boyfriend." she sort of backed off and then I just quit the convo.
The thing is it shouldn't bother me that much but it has been. I want to think it's because he hasn't been talking to me as of recently. He texted me the other day, I replied and no response back. Then I texted him last night at 1 am because I was feeling lonely. He never responded but then I realized when I woke up that he had church...duh. Either way, I'm fucking upset about the world right now. My Mom is being an ass and a bunch of stuff is going down on the home front. I wish I felt better....
I've been up north visiting my Grandam this past week and I decided to text a friend I hadn't talked to in a while. It ended up getting into a discussion about the boy I like. She doesn't approve and said she "doesn't trust" him. Then she had to say goodbye because her fuck buddy friend was over. So the next day she texts me again and says we never finished our convo...I was already pissed from before because her basis of not trusting him was a load of bs. Anyways, she basically made me feel like shit and said because I told him how I feel awhile back I'm "forcing him" into a relationship. I'm not. I wanted to get it off my chest that I had been crying and upset about things and apparently that makes me forcing him....I told her specifically I don't know if he likes me back but I think he does. I told her repeatedly that I'm done talking about him and she replied "because you know i'm right?" I told her "No, because you don't approve that I like someone. I've never even had a boyfriend." she sort of backed off and then I just quit the convo.
The thing is it shouldn't bother me that much but it has been. I want to think it's because he hasn't been talking to me as of recently. He texted me the other day, I replied and no response back. Then I texted him last night at 1 am because I was feeling lonely. He never responded but then I realized when I woke up that he had church...duh. Either way, I'm fucking upset about the world right now. My Mom is being an ass and a bunch of stuff is going down on the home front. I wish I felt better....