Life and stuff
The Good:
I have a date tonight! Not a romantic date, but a friend date. I may have mentioned at least once in the past, that I have a hard time establishing adult friendships. I have several long running long distance friendships, but as far as a local in person relationship goes, I seem to kind of suck at maintaining those. I'm not sure why, exactly. I think I'm fun to hang out with... Maybe I just expect too much? I don't think I'm demanding- I don't want all of anyone's time or anything, I just want the occastional hang out, and to not be stood up when we make plans. That's it.
Anyway, so since I feel like I have a poor track record with establishing in person friendships, I've been really reluctant to try again. It just hurts to damn much to get invested in a friendship and then lose it. That makes me special, I just know it.
So, when a casual acquaintance at work started suggesting that we get together to hang out and let our kids play together, I was leary of doing so. Especially since if the kids get close and then the frienship falls apart, there's even more pain there.
BUT- the kids ended up playing together at a group event and really liked each other. So, I thought, what the hell- I've got a long life ahead of me (hopefully), so I may as well fill it up with as many good times as I can. Or something like that.
So, I'm going to take a chance on this. She's a very lovely person, who has some differing religous/political views (mostly, I think quite a bit of her politics are based on religion), but seems pretty open minded and tolerant of other people's viewpoints, so there's hope there that we can be mutually respectful.
Also, good- I'm loving getting my house in order. Well, not the actual work of it, so much, but I love being able to walk into a clean and organized living room, and the kitchen is staying fairly clean as well, which is awesome. Beloved has been better about helping out, even if rather inconsistently. Still, it's progress. I'm rather hoping that the progress continues. I've started a tumblr, which I'm still trying to figure out how to use properly, although I'm kind of getting the hang of it. That's where I'll be doing my tracking of my "unfucking", since I feel kind of bad about throwing pictures of my cluttered and disorganized house in front of you guys. But, if you want to see it, you can. It's at laughingotter.tumblr.com. I'm thinking I'm also going to use that for fun, otter oriented stuff. Because I love otters. :D
The BAD-
Mom's brain function is slowing down. There's apparently not much to be done about it that she's not already doing. It sucks. This means that the memory lapses, processing errors, double vision, and exhaustion are going to get worse and worse. Not a big surprise, but still...
I think that's all, actually. More good than bad. I like that. :D
I have a date tonight! Not a romantic date, but a friend date. I may have mentioned at least once in the past, that I have a hard time establishing adult friendships. I have several long running long distance friendships, but as far as a local in person relationship goes, I seem to kind of suck at maintaining those. I'm not sure why, exactly. I think I'm fun to hang out with... Maybe I just expect too much? I don't think I'm demanding- I don't want all of anyone's time or anything, I just want the occastional hang out, and to not be stood up when we make plans. That's it.
Anyway, so since I feel like I have a poor track record with establishing in person friendships, I've been really reluctant to try again. It just hurts to damn much to get invested in a friendship and then lose it. That makes me special, I just know it.
So, when a casual acquaintance at work started suggesting that we get together to hang out and let our kids play together, I was leary of doing so. Especially since if the kids get close and then the frienship falls apart, there's even more pain there.
BUT- the kids ended up playing together at a group event and really liked each other. So, I thought, what the hell- I've got a long life ahead of me (hopefully), so I may as well fill it up with as many good times as I can. Or something like that.
So, I'm going to take a chance on this. She's a very lovely person, who has some differing religous/political views (mostly, I think quite a bit of her politics are based on religion), but seems pretty open minded and tolerant of other people's viewpoints, so there's hope there that we can be mutually respectful.
Also, good- I'm loving getting my house in order. Well, not the actual work of it, so much, but I love being able to walk into a clean and organized living room, and the kitchen is staying fairly clean as well, which is awesome. Beloved has been better about helping out, even if rather inconsistently. Still, it's progress. I'm rather hoping that the progress continues. I've started a tumblr, which I'm still trying to figure out how to use properly, although I'm kind of getting the hang of it. That's where I'll be doing my tracking of my "unfucking", since I feel kind of bad about throwing pictures of my cluttered and disorganized house in front of you guys. But, if you want to see it, you can. It's at laughingotter.tumblr.com. I'm thinking I'm also going to use that for fun, otter oriented stuff. Because I love otters. :D
The BAD-
Mom's brain function is slowing down. There's apparently not much to be done about it that she's not already doing. It sucks. This means that the memory lapses, processing errors, double vision, and exhaustion are going to get worse and worse. Not a big surprise, but still...
I think that's all, actually. More good than bad. I like that. :D