My Love....
My Love, this is my first entry here where Im not putting a photo in, nobody reads this anyway so I shall write to you things that people wont find out about me anywhere else. I am lost without you, each day we are apart more of my heart shatters bit by bit, I fear that this has made me bitter so much so that I no longer relate to people, to humans, I can not understand them and their ways at the best of times but I used to be more patient as well. The earth has changed so much, everything is so different here, I miss dark heavens and the comfort of familiarity, but most of all, I miss you. How could things have gone so wrong in a small moment of time? I long for forgiveness, I long to change that which cannot be undone, is this even possible?
I dont know if you will ever read this, if I will ever find you, but I cannot, I must not loose that little bit of hope I have in my heart. We will be together again, somehow in someway. I have a small hope that in some small way you remember me. I long to find you, and endlessly, anxiously I search for you. I pray I find you soon.
It would please you to know I found one of our children, Kurayami, one of the many we have lost, she does not know what she is yet, but I am sure in time she will realize what and who she is and then it will be up to her to make a very difficult choice, she is wise and I trust that her heart will guide her in the right direction. I wish I could have shared that with you, finding her, being with her again, holding her in my arms.
I am also sure that you would be extremely jealous that Yukiko has been with me, but know, that my heart will always remain loyal to you, it could not love anyone else the way I love you, though I am sure you know this already. You are my light on the darkest days, and lately there have been many. I wish I even had a photo of you, but things happened so quickly, you remain, only in my memory.
I love you,
Always,
Amaya
I dont know if you will ever read this, if I will ever find you, but I cannot, I must not loose that little bit of hope I have in my heart. We will be together again, somehow in someway. I have a small hope that in some small way you remember me. I long to find you, and endlessly, anxiously I search for you. I pray I find you soon.
It would please you to know I found one of our children, Kurayami, one of the many we have lost, she does not know what she is yet, but I am sure in time she will realize what and who she is and then it will be up to her to make a very difficult choice, she is wise and I trust that her heart will guide her in the right direction. I wish I could have shared that with you, finding her, being with her again, holding her in my arms.
I am also sure that you would be extremely jealous that Yukiko has been with me, but know, that my heart will always remain loyal to you, it could not love anyone else the way I love you, though I am sure you know this already. You are my light on the darkest days, and lately there have been many. I wish I even had a photo of you, but things happened so quickly, you remain, only in my memory.
I love you,
Always,
Amaya