third day, third post.

[godcallsaspade]

my mom always told me that we become what we despise the most, in this case... it couldn't be more true. i guess it would be difficult to emotionally fulfill someone when your heart is in another place. just 4 days ago he was begging me to move to pensacola because he wanted to take care of me. the words he said rolled off his tongue like saliva- every word was executed perfectly and without a bit of hesitation. the distance was too much. everyone was exactly right. who were we to think we were the exception?
tonight i'm left with a heart shaped box of chocolates, an unnecessarily packed suitcase and a few tears that will dry up in the morning.
i guess the first time you fall in love you always secretly believe it'll last forever.