too eager to appease the cure is the disease and its only growing worse
i hate mcdonalds...i hate this clique of three girls. three managers. Seriously now i mean you all know i suck at headset...i get nervous (kelly says i don't suck but o well) SO DON'T FUCKING PUT ME UP THERE AND THEN YELL AT ME LIKE IM A FUCKING IDIOT. its like go fuck yourself. and then the girls in this clique all talk shit about eachother when the others aren't around...what the fuck? im so sick of all the bullshit i haven't talked to anyone but joe about it and that doesn't help as much as i want it to. maybe cuz hes a boy? and he doesn't give much input other than "don't worry i'll take care of you" and he does and i love him more than anything he just tries to reassure me instead of giving me input. it would kill me if i lost him. So after i stood in drive thru one telling them to go fuck themselves and if they're gonna yell at me put my ass somewhere else kelly asked me if i was ok...it was odd. the whole day at work i just wanted to cry. Then before i left kelly sat me down and asked if i was alright and told me im too hard on myself and i pretty much just let it all flow out everything about chris everything about mcdonalds...i just kinda sat there crying my eyes out. And i think it kinda helped i needed a good cry. and she wasn't at all a bitch. she asked if she could do anything to help. but theres nothing. my phone is still off atleast everything else is paid. but i think its time joe boy and i go looking for a roomate.......i need to go to bed gotta work at 8