Oct 18, 2004 15:39
hey everyone! how are all of my dear friends.... lol. Anyway your probably wondering wut is up with the subject of my livejournal is all about- well i kind of seen a change in me a GOOD change. i mean yesterday i was laying in bed with my cousin beside me and he was snoring away and i was just staring at my lamp and thinking about how precious life is. i mean a lot of ppl see me as the goody goody with straight a's and wut i say to that o puh lease and then go on with my life. well wouldnt you think that if someone thought that of you you would be like WOW I SHOULD TRY MY HARDEST TO DO MY BEST TO MAKE MY FAMILY PROUD OF ME AND ALSO MY FRIENDS. not me i would just laugh and say im far from an a student. a lot of my friends work there butt off and me i lay back and let what happens happen. but no from now on im going to stand my ground and be the light in the dark world... and i mean it this time. all im focused on is getting a bf becuz all my friends have boyfriends. and im focused im making everybody like me. its like wuts important is set back and everything that is not important is my number one priority. when it shouldnt be. i admit i want a boyfriend cuz all my friends have boyfriends and i am the single one in the bunch. i never wanted to admit that... becuz its not something i like to admit to. its just i guess i want to be like everyone else than being myself. and its easy letting that take hold of you- that is if you are a weak person.i guess everyone says that im an awesome unique girl of god. and I LOVE HEARING THAT but its not true. i am like a copy of every other person. so now im going to be ME and not be SOMEONE ELSE. i mean its like im a character in a movie IM NOT ME! well im just going to FORGET ABOUT THE MOVIE and be me SAMANTHA, and wen i go to skool tomoro i am going to tell all my friends im a new person FOR GOOD... and when someone cusses around me im gonna be like UH UH!! lol im going to either tell them that they shouldn't be cussing around me or they shouldnt be hanging around me period. i dont care if they say crap or pisses but THATS ALL! well enough of me babbling on! talk to you laterz! love yah all!
love yah loadz,
-*- Sam -*-