Muscles
Wow my core feels ripped and incredibly strong/endurance mode. I walked home with about my regular super load of groceries and it felt a fraction of its normal weight; it was far easier to take home than in the past. I guess while I lost muscle mass size(aka fluff) I increased the density quite a bit from all that proper vomiting saturday. I am glad I learned the proper technique for vomiting when I had that stomach flu 8 or 10 months ago, it seems to have greatly increased my muscle quality of my chest, back and core. Kinda a scary thought but I guess it explains why I lost all my body fat in 30 hours instead of more of my muscles than i did. My calves and legs seem to have shrunk in size though roughly 30% in muscle mass on the calve, and around 20% in my thighs. I've got a week or two of regular walking to do to get them back to par.
My brain feels very depleted I am in a state of I don't give a shit about anything; I guess it is because my brain is entirely preoccupied with repairing the damage I dealt it. I am seeing some old traits/habits of my surface, that almost bragging like way I am mentioning the event; I guess I still love the battle wound conversation side of being a man far too much after all; I don't mind that but I think I might be comming off as attention whoring, not that I am looking for attention by it I just like openly talking about it. I wouldn't mind hearing others battle wounds from similar events happening to them though, there is such camaraderie when I talk with someone about such things it makes me feel really proud and good about life.
This has also seems to have temporarily eradicated my active depression, though i am still experiencing the standard fare of symptoms (over sleeping, apathy, etc). I feel pretty happy despite all this happening, though I do feel sad about the drinking thing, I think it will end up being a positive event over all, drinking is too expensive for what it garners, and I am too poor. We shall see where I stand with it though when I've put on 15-25 more lbs of weight of muscle and fat and gotten my vitamin stores back maxed out. Gonna need to head to The Vitamin Shoppe at some point.
My brain feels very depleted I am in a state of I don't give a shit about anything; I guess it is because my brain is entirely preoccupied with repairing the damage I dealt it. I am seeing some old traits/habits of my surface, that almost bragging like way I am mentioning the event; I guess I still love the battle wound conversation side of being a man far too much after all; I don't mind that but I think I might be comming off as attention whoring, not that I am looking for attention by it I just like openly talking about it. I wouldn't mind hearing others battle wounds from similar events happening to them though, there is such camaraderie when I talk with someone about such things it makes me feel really proud and good about life.
This has also seems to have temporarily eradicated my active depression, though i am still experiencing the standard fare of symptoms (over sleeping, apathy, etc). I feel pretty happy despite all this happening, though I do feel sad about the drinking thing, I think it will end up being a positive event over all, drinking is too expensive for what it garners, and I am too poor. We shall see where I stand with it though when I've put on 15-25 more lbs of weight of muscle and fat and gotten my vitamin stores back maxed out. Gonna need to head to The Vitamin Shoppe at some point.