friendly
nothing seems hopeless, except hope
just kidding/ just writing in ad speak (in space no one can hear you scream)
i'm a spirit that fell out of its body and doesn't know it yet.
sometimes distant sadness floats in me
other days a pointless freedom, as if nothing had consequence
...no buildings burn
no one suffers on top of chain link fence
just the passing voices of old boyfriends in the early afternoon.
rode a bike to one of the first places i ever worked
stayed there a long time while people passed through me.
went to a movie that ended in a tornado.
sat around while people kissed comedians.
dreamed about unnatural love:
romantic attachment to a robot,
mom giving my little brother a blow job,
being a member of a rebel fighting force camped in the woods and having to torture a prisoner...
underwear marked "irregular"