Time is inevitable
Been a while it has.
Here I am three years engaged,
working on my bachelors,
and pursuing my dream.
Psychologist is the dream in mind.
All in due time.
My overcompensation of a boastful and
narcissistic attitude
used to supplement for the lack of
confidence I expressed or endured.
Now as I glance back, I just laugh at my
carelessness and interactions with others.
I wonder when my reflection
ten years from now will be as
drastic as true contemplation opposed
to this current present I reside in.
Gloomy days lurk in my view from the
window adjacent from the corner of my eye.
Today I feel slightly similar to my
surroundings in a nervous,
high tension, and reflective state.
Where to pursue graduate school?
When will we get married?
When will we purchase a house?
How will I establish better credit?
When will I have the drive to get a part-time job?
When will my motivation kick in aside from doing the
bare minimum with school and house chores?
So many papers coming up that I have to tackle.
My weight has soared over these past three years
from 150 to 185 pounds.
I still do not look sick or obscene with my stature,
but I eat ridiculously and put in the bare minimum of
work related to physical activity.
Balance is something I need to strive for further.
Haunted thoughts tempt my mind
interfering with current positivity.
What to do? We age and yet our fears are still present.
The fears just happen to change.
Tyler Fox is his name. The guy I plan to marry.
My soul mate.
Just to think, I thought Stuart was
going to be the one.
Five years ago it has been a little shy of
three weeks since he broke my heart.
Funny how you still think
about the first true love.
Friends have drifted and parted
separate ways and here we stay.
Confined within our thoughts and within our
hearts is where our decisions lay.
The end.
/Thoughts of a 26 something.
Here I am three years engaged,
working on my bachelors,
and pursuing my dream.
Psychologist is the dream in mind.
All in due time.
My overcompensation of a boastful and
narcissistic attitude
used to supplement for the lack of
confidence I expressed or endured.
Now as I glance back, I just laugh at my
carelessness and interactions with others.
I wonder when my reflection
ten years from now will be as
drastic as true contemplation opposed
to this current present I reside in.
Gloomy days lurk in my view from the
window adjacent from the corner of my eye.
Today I feel slightly similar to my
surroundings in a nervous,
high tension, and reflective state.
Where to pursue graduate school?
When will we get married?
When will we purchase a house?
How will I establish better credit?
When will I have the drive to get a part-time job?
When will my motivation kick in aside from doing the
bare minimum with school and house chores?
So many papers coming up that I have to tackle.
My weight has soared over these past three years
from 150 to 185 pounds.
I still do not look sick or obscene with my stature,
but I eat ridiculously and put in the bare minimum of
work related to physical activity.
Balance is something I need to strive for further.
Haunted thoughts tempt my mind
interfering with current positivity.
What to do? We age and yet our fears are still present.
The fears just happen to change.
Tyler Fox is his name. The guy I plan to marry.
My soul mate.
Just to think, I thought Stuart was
going to be the one.
Five years ago it has been a little shy of
three weeks since he broke my heart.
Funny how you still think
about the first true love.
Friends have drifted and parted
separate ways and here we stay.
Confined within our thoughts and within our
hearts is where our decisions lay.
The end.
/Thoughts of a 26 something.