i'm 18 years old now

[god4bid]

& have been for 6 months;;
guys have come in & out of my life;
i'm a grown up attractive woman;
got my braces off;
the loss of my grandpa was overwhelming;
gaining my freindships back;
got a boyfriend whom i have up/down feelings about;

trying to let go of the people
who don't give two shits about me;
stop holding the popular people
up on a pedastool & start appreciating
the people that i've been there with
& have been there for me since day one.

more importantly though; i have to stop
trying to fit in. stop trying to be
some other person that people want me
to be, a part of me has never found myself.

& a part of me won't ever...