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i'm making a new lj layout.
my myspace now looks better than ever.
last weekend i saw my grandparents.
my grandpa is still sore & in pain
but he, is progressing slowly but surely.
i plan to continue going up there every
weekend for a long time. i don't mind,
eustis is starting to grow on me.
so what if walmart is the hangout spot,
the mall & movie theater's are in another town,
a majority of the neighbors are either mexican
or puertorican, the springs are the closest
thing to the beach & that is 20+ miles away,
that & i don't have alot of friends there,
but hey it can be great sometimes too.
escaping almost two hundred miles is
a far away escape to me, helps me clear
out my thoughts. justin & i have been
broken up for a week now. man, i don't know.
israel has barely called me at all,
though i did talk to him yesterday.
ivan, israel & i will hopefully hangout today,
& no more flossin' from him, we'll see.
i've been thinking about it & i don't know
what's going to happen with sam, we'll see.
my aunt & uncle come back from their vacation friday.
it was so nice to not see all them for a month.
my aunt bonnie needs to go there as well
with her stressed out uptight self.
just got done sneezing it up, man i feel better.
felt like it was 7, turns out it's 10:30pm.
after i came back from out of town,
i cleaned, did the afternoon stuff,
it wasn't until 5ish that we got home,
the ride up to lila's was almost 4 hours
due to rain & serious traffic, anywho-
so i was supposed to chill w/ rudy,
he flossed, so ended up chillin' w/ jason & jeff.
got home around 11ish, fucked around w/ myspace,
got to bed around 2ish.
saturday before packing to leave,
got some chores done & made some phone calls.
justin made it sound like he didn't want to
talk to me at all yesterday, so fuck him.
friday was cool, hungout with jessica, long time friend,
was supposed to hangout with ivan & israel that night,
but big shocker, that didn't happen.
ivan ended up getting stopped by the cops,
i ended up chillin' with my cousin.
as much good as i do,
i am still doing some bad.
i am so confused schoool wise,
wtf am i going to do.
maybe i should just go back next year,
and finish up after the first quarter,
but i don't want to be labeled as a loser.
just a person that's made past mistakes.
israel's ex in chicago called me last week,
we had a nice discussion & all,
she's a really cool chick.
i didn't want to get envolved, so i did not.
i'm not about to rat out one of my best friends.
speaking of best friends, dori & kris
have remained M.I.A, haha.
& i don't know why.
i need to get alot of people's numbers,
i lost so many numbers from school,
really pisses me the fuck off,
including one of my bestest buddies
kevin bauza, so if anyone knows his #,
someone needs to give me that shit.
i need to stop blowing off jeremey,
always telling him we're going to chill,
but lately i haven't been planning shit,
& everything is somehow just falling in place.
i guess that's how life works sometimes.
it's amazing how you go behind the computer,
& think to yourself that you have nothing to say,
until you start typing & these thoughts just come
rushing out onto the keyboard & released onto
the computer, that's why i like the computer,
helps me release things i could never do in a
way in words, trying to tell someone.
no more put offs, i need money & a job.
so therefore, today my cousin is taking me,
to kash n' karry & i'm filling out the big application.
to all you bitching about college & all,
like listen up alright, stop fucking complaining,
atleast you're already graduated, you probally have a job too,
but most of all you have it made because you're
in college, meaning you're all set.
my future at this point is looking bleak.
maybe i should just stop smoking weed all & all.
seems to get more in the way than do good sometimes.
ahhh, fuck.
thank god i got my time of the month,
i was getting worried for a while.
i'm actually typing this as my reminder
of when it is since i never keep track.
my myspace now looks better than ever.
last weekend i saw my grandparents.
my grandpa is still sore & in pain
but he, is progressing slowly but surely.
i plan to continue going up there every
weekend for a long time. i don't mind,
eustis is starting to grow on me.
so what if walmart is the hangout spot,
the mall & movie theater's are in another town,
a majority of the neighbors are either mexican
or puertorican, the springs are the closest
thing to the beach & that is 20+ miles away,
that & i don't have alot of friends there,
but hey it can be great sometimes too.
escaping almost two hundred miles is
a far away escape to me, helps me clear
out my thoughts. justin & i have been
broken up for a week now. man, i don't know.
israel has barely called me at all,
though i did talk to him yesterday.
ivan, israel & i will hopefully hangout today,
& no more flossin' from him, we'll see.
i've been thinking about it & i don't know
what's going to happen with sam, we'll see.
my aunt & uncle come back from their vacation friday.
it was so nice to not see all them for a month.
my aunt bonnie needs to go there as well
with her stressed out uptight self.
just got done sneezing it up, man i feel better.
felt like it was 7, turns out it's 10:30pm.
after i came back from out of town,
i cleaned, did the afternoon stuff,
it wasn't until 5ish that we got home,
the ride up to lila's was almost 4 hours
due to rain & serious traffic, anywho-
so i was supposed to chill w/ rudy,
he flossed, so ended up chillin' w/ jason & jeff.
got home around 11ish, fucked around w/ myspace,
got to bed around 2ish.
saturday before packing to leave,
got some chores done & made some phone calls.
justin made it sound like he didn't want to
talk to me at all yesterday, so fuck him.
friday was cool, hungout with jessica, long time friend,
was supposed to hangout with ivan & israel that night,
but big shocker, that didn't happen.
ivan ended up getting stopped by the cops,
i ended up chillin' with my cousin.
as much good as i do,
i am still doing some bad.
i am so confused schoool wise,
wtf am i going to do.
maybe i should just go back next year,
and finish up after the first quarter,
but i don't want to be labeled as a loser.
just a person that's made past mistakes.
israel's ex in chicago called me last week,
we had a nice discussion & all,
she's a really cool chick.
i didn't want to get envolved, so i did not.
i'm not about to rat out one of my best friends.
speaking of best friends, dori & kris
have remained M.I.A, haha.
& i don't know why.
i need to get alot of people's numbers,
i lost so many numbers from school,
really pisses me the fuck off,
including one of my bestest buddies
kevin bauza, so if anyone knows his #,
someone needs to give me that shit.
i need to stop blowing off jeremey,
always telling him we're going to chill,
but lately i haven't been planning shit,
& everything is somehow just falling in place.
i guess that's how life works sometimes.
it's amazing how you go behind the computer,
& think to yourself that you have nothing to say,
until you start typing & these thoughts just come
rushing out onto the keyboard & released onto
the computer, that's why i like the computer,
helps me release things i could never do in a
way in words, trying to tell someone.
no more put offs, i need money & a job.
so therefore, today my cousin is taking me,
to kash n' karry & i'm filling out the big application.
to all you bitching about college & all,
like listen up alright, stop fucking complaining,
atleast you're already graduated, you probally have a job too,
but most of all you have it made because you're
in college, meaning you're all set.
my future at this point is looking bleak.
maybe i should just stop smoking weed all & all.
seems to get more in the way than do good sometimes.
ahhh, fuck.
thank god i got my time of the month,
i was getting worried for a while.
i'm actually typing this as my reminder
of when it is since i never keep track.